On Dreams…
Red Jeans: Stitch Fix (similar) | Denim Jacket: Belk c/o (similar) | Scarf: World Market | Graphic Blouse: Stitch Fix (similar) | Clutch: Stitch Fix | Earrings: Stitch Fix (gift) (love these) | Watch: Vierra Watches c/o (use code “BEINGMOLLY” for 10% off your order!) | Shoes: TOMS for Target (similar)
This post has nothing to do with this outfit.
You’ve been forewarned.
I’ve been thinking a lot about dreams. You know… life-long dreams. Living your dream. The American Dream. Dreaming big. Always dreaming. ALL OF THE DREAMS.
I was listening to a talk the other day where someone said, “When people say, ‘If you believe it, you can achieve it… that’s all well and good, but the fact is, that’s not really true.'”
And boy did that ever resonate with me. I’ve always sort of felt that the whole “If you dream it, you can achieve it” thing was a bit of a farce. I’m not trying to be a Negative Nancy or anything, but let’s think about it for a moment…
So, if “If you dream it, you can achieve it” was true, then…
- I’d sing like Carrie Underwood
- I’d be able to move like Beyonce
- I’d have a body like Cindy Crawford (in her younger days, heck… even NOW)
- I’d be able to fluently speak all languages
- And I’d be a bajillionaire. Literally a bajillionaire.
None of those things are true and none of them will ever come true. No amount of dreaming is going to give me any or all of those things.
And that’s okay.
The fact is, when we’re born, we’re given a gift from God. The gift of life and the gift of talents and skills. Some of us are given more gifts, some of us are given less gifts, but we’re all given a gift.
And often times, our gift might not match up with what we THINK is our dream. More often than not, what we THINK is our dream isn’t actually OUR dream… it is a dream planted within us by society. It’s a dream that we think is our dream because we think the only way we will feel successful is if we achieve that particular dream.
Are we tracking or have you lost me?
Let’s just talk examples here.
From the time I was able to talk, I wanted to be on Saturday Night Live. I wanted to make people laugh for a living. I would stay up late on a Saturday night and watch these brilliant comedians make the audience howl with laughter. Half the time (most of the time) I had no idea what the jokes meant, but I laughed because I knew what they were saying had to be funny.
That was my dream my entire life. I wrote and performed sketch and improv comedy for almost 15 years… And really up until about four years ago, I swore I was going to move to New York City and become the next Tina Fey.
Comedy was something I felt great about. I felt confident in what I was doing… Sure, like any other comedian I had nights where I totally bombed, but I knew I was good. I knew I was funny.
But as I got older and matured and realized what it would actually take to get on SNL… the less and less I dreamed of being there one way.
I watched comedians who were 1,000 times more talented than me get passed over time and time again and never get their big break and I started to doubt myself over and over again.
I admired my comedy friends who were out there DOING IT. Performing every single night without fail and hustling to get seen… going to auditions… writing…. performing… doing it all over and over again. I was so in awe of them.
But the more and more I started to think about what I wanted with my life, the more filled with doubt I became.
And as I really started to examine my life-long “dream,” I realized that the dream was actually a whole lot bigger than what I thought it was.
Would being on SNL be the best ever? Oh absolutely. But was being on SNL actually what I wanted? Not really.
I wanted (and still do) to make people laugh. Nothing gives me more of an adrenaline rush than the effect of making someone laugh. I want to bring joy to people. I want people to be able to escape from their problems for a few minutes… with me. I want to serve people. I want to love people. I want to spoil people.
My dream is ultimately to improve the lives of others…
Maybe that’s through laughter. Maybe that’s through an act of service. Maybe that’s through inspiring someone to get dressed today. Maybe that’s through showing someone how to apply a gorgeous red lip. Maybe that’s through a random act of kindness. Maybe that’s through helping someone get healthier through using essential oils. Maybe that’s through someone learning something they didn’t know before. Maybe that’s through someone feeling inspired to do something. Anything.
I don’t quite know yet what it all means. And the truth is, I think I’m finally at the point where I’m okay with it. I’m okay with that.
I’m learning that life, in and of itself, is all about trial and error. Life is about making mistakes, taking risks, and trying. It’s about stepping outside of your comfort zone(s).
It’s about dreaming big, and then totally reworking your dream, and then taking on another dream. It’s about being okay with not knowing what your dream is.
Right now, I know that I love to write. I love to create. And I love to bring joy and laughter to those around me… through this blog, through interactions in my personal life, through my family. I don’t know how it all fits together. I don’t know how it all corresponds. But that’s okay.
That’s life.
Molly – I super LOVE this post! I had no idea you used to do comedy. How fun and I can totally see you doing that! I’d pay for a ticket to your show for sure 😉
I love dreams and I have a lot of them. I am constantly day dreaming of the next big thing. Sometimes it can get pretty tiring. Like my mind want shut off and let me just BE. But I also think that having these dreams in the back of my mind allow me to push to be successful and make things happen.
Molly-I think I really needed to hear this today. I have big dreams too and I sometimes wonder where God is leading me. No matter what, I want to go in the direction he leads and to share his love with all that cross my path. Thank you for writing such a heart felt post and if it means anything I think you are hilarious. You make me smile through your pictures and words.
Janeane
http://www.designingfrommycloset.wordpress.com
This is something that I am working through RIGHT NOW! I’m a BIG dreamer, but when it comes down to what really matters, those dreams don’t matter a bit.
What a great post! I sit around all the time wondering what my dream is really suppose to be and wonder if it’s wrong to feel content with my little life just the way it is with no grandiose plans to make it any bigger. And that outfit….perfect for you!
I just read something about dreams/wishes and I think it was on Oprah.com. The article was about how to figure out what you really want in life. Imagine a genie gives you two wishes. What is #1? Most people say be a bajilionaire. When asked why do you want #1, most people say “to be happy” and that is their TRUE wish in life – to be happy. They think the $$ will make them happy but thats not always the case. I thought that was so interesting because we all think of things we want but ultimately, why do we want it? To be happy!
Heather @ http://hangingoutwiththemoons.blogspot.com/
Well said, Molly! I think you just said everything I have been thinking over the last few years about my life. I’ve been struggling with the rat race of corporate life versus living the life I actually want. This post refreshed my desire to spend some real time figuring this out for myself. Thanks for all the little ways you inspire your readers every day! 🙂
I think so often we are told to have these massive dreams and I think that it is good to aspire to be the best you can be and work hard towards that but sometimes that can lead to disillusionment. I always thought my dream was to travel and live abroad (and also be in musical theatre but I always knew that was along the lines of being a bajillionaire!). But you know I’ve realised now that I’ve been abroad and done all sorts of stuff that actually meeting Dave and being happier and more content in my day to day life that I am living my dream. Yes there are still things I would like to have and do and be but ultimately I think really I can’t possibly be any happier than when we are out walking with no-one else around in magnificent scenery. You know it never even crossed my mind even to dream about this, it was a bit of a surprise to me! Sometimes we fail to be happy because we are always looking for more, or for something (or someone) to make us happy (you don’t strike me as that kind of person), maybe actually we should dream of being wise enough to know that true happiness is found within ourselves… that I suppose is my real dream and why I’ll continue to strive to the best person that I can be.