All Over the Same Place Again

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Have you ever felt so totally overwhelmed, while also so totally focused? Does that even make sense? If it doesn’t, that’s fine… because, well, it doesn’t really make sense to me either when I say it out loud, but in my head I’m all like, “Yeah! Duh! Of course that makes sense!” 

That’s basically my life right now. Look, I’m NOT falling into the “busy” trap and just saying, “LOOK AT ALL THE THINGS AND LOOK AT HOW BUSY I AM.” No, that’s not what this is. This is me just admitting to you that I do not, at all, not even close, have it all together. A lot of days are just me trying to survive and keep my head above water. BUT, in other ways, lately, I have felt more focused than ever.

Working from home full time with two kids is no easy task. Lilly no longer naps and flat out refuses to even have a “quiet time,” so my during-the-day schedule is pretty sporadic and insane. If I can get an hour of focused work in during the day, I call that a MASSIVE win. Heck, if I can get 30 minutes of focused work in, I call that a win. My wins are simple, folks. 

But last week, I had a really great day on Friday and I just HUSTLED LIKE NOBODY’S BUSINESS and knocked out like 25 things on my to-do list that had been hanging over my head and suddenly I felt a sigh of relief. Sometimes just putting the pedal to the medal and getting myself organized can REALLY make all the difference when it comes to my overall sanity and productivity.

Even moreso, when I really focus and get myself in order, I feel like a better mom and a better wife overall. 

Again, I’ll say this, I don’t have it all figured out. Some days I totally lose it and think that there’s no way I can do this and that I’m not cut out for motherhood, entrepreneurship, or anything. Some days I truly feel like I should just throw in the towel.

But then I get OVER MYSELF and basically tell myself to shut it (haha!) and I get back to work.

I really am a big glass case of emotions sometimes. Haha! Or maybe just a roller coaster of emotions? Either way, more often than not, I’m all over the place.

I promise this self-deprecating talk is not me trying to also make you think that I’m TOTALLY unorganized or anything like that. Haha! Am I just digging myself a bigger hole now? Should I just quit while I’m ahead.

In any event, the whole point of this I guess is just to say that YOU ARE DOING AWESOME. Right where you are, you are doing awesome. It’s okay to not be okay. It’s okay to not have it all together. It’s okay to feel totally overwhelmed. It’s also okay to feel in complete control. It’s also totally okay to feel like you’re in the best place you’ve ever been.

Wherever you are, I’m learning, that’s exactly where you’re supposed to be. And that’s okay. Challenges should refine us. Success should humble us. Change helps us grow.