A Fresh Start

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sunrise photo by me.

Sometimes I tend to take on too much. I don’t say no very easily. One of my biggest fears is letting people down. I just want to please people.

But then I realize when I go through spurts of doing that too much, I realize that I become less ME. I start to lose a part of myself. I start to feel “off.” And then I can’t be the wife that I should be. Or the friend that I should be. Or the sister I should be. Or the blogger I should be. Or the employee I should be. Or the ________ I should be.

And then I start to feel like I’m letting people down.

Which is my biggest fear.

And it’s a vicious cycle.

And then I realize that I start to get so focused on myself and what I’m doing and all of the things I’m trying to do for other people, that I start to lose sight of God – and that’s where my focus needs to be. I stop keeping my sight set on Him.

Because if my focus is first and foremost on the Lord, then everything else always seems to get done. Everything seems to fall into place.

Sometimes we just need a little kick in the rear and a fresh perspective.

As I near my due date and as we near the next chapter of our lives as parents, I keep trying to remind myself of this.

I can’t do it all. I can’t be focused on 100 things at once. I need to be focused on the Lord first.

And so I am treating each day as a fresh start. What didn’t get done the day or night before will get done the next day. It’s okay.

With each day that the sun rises – it’s a chance to start new.

“From the rising of the sun to the place where it sets, the name of the LORD is to be praised.”  -Psalm 113:3

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  4. you always say it so right. I feel guilty that I don’t get to check in on my blog friends as much as I would like so that I can live a somewhat balanced life, but coming to your part of the internet brings a smile to my face every time!!

    xx
    Here&Now

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  7. Girl, I do the SAME.THING. It is really hard and I still struggle with realizing that although it FEELS like I’m letting someone down when I say no, really, I’m not. They understand 99% of the time and most of the time, it works out on the other party’s end better that way, too. I don’t know why, but I just attribute it all to God’s great planning. His plan is NOT my plan. And His timing is NOT my timing. Also, I struggle with asking for help when I really need it. Because I’m the “together” one. I really need to work on that. I have so many friends that are standing up to bat and I never call on them because I don’t want to burden anyone.

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  8. I tend to take on too much too, and I have a hard time saying no. And then I just get frazzled and stressed, and it’s not good – especially keeping it all on my mind. I love the idea about letting it all go before bed and waking up fresh every day. I need to live more peacefully like this! I hope you are able to find some peace and relaxation!

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  9. AMEN! Great Post Molly, it’s something we all struggle with but it’s always an amazing feeling to know His peace and His grace lays on you. ♥

    ♥ Linda

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  10. I really needed this today. THANK YOU. Seriously, thank you. I have been taking on way too much lately and I feel like I don’t even know who I am and am clearly letting others down.

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  12. Molly—this is going to more true to you than you could ever imagine once you have little baby Stillman in your arms……the days will run together and things won’t get done and control over situations files right out the window but you will be the best mommy EVER!!!! You and John are AMAZING in your faith (first and foremost), fashion and fawesome:-) I’m so excited for you……..

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